really, it's nothing.

You sit here in this room surrounded by nothingness. There's no one to run to EVER. You must conquer all fears and tackle all your own problems by yourself. Not that you would want to burden anyone with such problems like your own. Nothing is really wrong, but you feel like there is anyway and you can't get the awful feelings away. You've lost one person that you could tell anything to and no one has ever been able to replace them. You just go about pretending everything is alright when it's not. Really you need someone to talk to and to hold onto tightly, but, they should want you too so it won't be just a one-way love. Yes this is how a feel as I sit here in this room surrounded by nothingness. Loneliness.

PERSON NEEDED: someone to spill my problems out to and they won't think I'm crazy.

My family thinks I'm crazy. I tell them they're crazy just to comfort myself.

Really if anyone could understand... I need someone who I can confide in and they won't laugh. Someone who won't talk bad about me behind my back. Someone who would value me as their best friend because I am perhaps capable of that kind of job.

Stop trying to fool around the truth because you'll never keep it hidden. So finally I am going to take those words and use it for myself:
I do feel depressed.
I am a negative person.
I think about giving up.
I want to get married but it hardly seems possible for someone like me.
Nobody can or will ever understand me.
I need a special bond with someone to heal because nothing helps me better than that. It's okay, you think I'm crazy.