Sooooo this whole blog has been pretty depressing. WELLLL I have GOOD news now. I have met the most amazing guy and he cares about me. I can't tell you how wonderful this feeling is that someone else wants you. My whole life I have wanted a boyfriend and I think this one will be my first. I just had my 18th birthday on Friday and my future boyfriend is 23! hah i know what you're thinking, he's 5 years older than me! Well I don't think he's too old for me. He genuinely cares about my well-being. I met him through Laura because he loves the horses and spends a lot of time out there. I have known him for a week and a half and we are already had our first date. Yesterday we watched the movie Resident Evil in Laura's sewing room in the back by ourselves. We went to Blockbuster and he gave me a hug from behind that gave me butterflies in my stomach. We watched the movie as he held me close and rubbed my arm and shoulders. It felt so good. It was a little chilly outside so he made sure I was warm;)