Well the relationship with Jared ended after a month at the end of March, neither of us really actually thought it was going to work because we are just different people. We are still friends and stuff but I got bored with only watching movies because he didn't want to spend money. HAH that does not work for me. I lost weight during my "happy period" when I was with him but now I have gained most of it back. It's only five pounds but it feels like 100 to me. I have decided to write about what I eat here in my blog because my mind needs to be fixed in order to maintain a healthy lifestyle. As a result of stress, frustration, and emotions I tend to eat too much of the wrong kinds of foods in the day. Although I realize why I eat 4 or 5 things I regret during the day, I cannot help myself. I heard on the news 2 days ago that food relieves some stress and I totally believe that because thats what it seems like to me.

Okay I am using a great website for my mental help and these are my first mental obstacles:

MENTAL OBSTACLE #1

You Comfort Yourself with Food

This Is Your Obstacle If:

[x] You finish a bag of snacks without realizing you ate that much.

[x] You have a hard time describing how you feel.

[x] You eat when you're stressed, angry, or bored.

Yep looks like 3 bad habits I have. Their solution recommendations are to keep a diary, eat at the table, take 3 deep breaths before I eat, and distract myself.

MENTAL OBSTACLE #2

You Can't Stick to a Healthy Lifestyle

This Is Your Obstacle If:

[x] Excuses always thwart your diet or exercise plans.

[x] You suspect you'll never break your bad habits.

[x] You lose weight, but always gain it back.

Wow another 3 bad habits, I'm on a roll! Make a plan (and a back-up plan), buddy up, turn health into a hobby, life preserver (picture yourself doing something after you lose the weight), and take baby steps are the solutions to these habits.

MENTAL OBSTACLE #3

You Dislike Your Body

This Is Your Obstacle If:

[eh] You view yourself as a healthy person trapped in an unhealthy body.

[x] You think you'll be happier once you've lost weight.

[x] You're quick to criticize your body.

Ok I score myself as a 2.5 on this one. In some ways (like exercising and eating the right fruits/veggies) I think I am healthy but as for picking food I am sometimes horrible. So the answers to these problems are to give myself 30 mins of private time a day, write myself a love letter, celebrate different body types, and try crab apple flower essence because it apparently eases feeling of low self-esteem.

MENTAL OBSTACLE #4

You Don't Have the Support You Need

This Is Your Obstacle If:

[] You are the only person you know who's serious about losing weight.

[] When you're out with friends, you eat foods you'd normally avoid.

[] Your spouse doesn't want you to be more active.

Well none of this applies! I have plenty of support, obviously no spouse though but I bet they would be supportive of me! ok I am not going to go over solution to these.

So I am going to write in this bog when I feel down and I want food. I will then hopefully realize I don't need the food.

OK I am super tired and suffering my weekly sleep-deficit especially cuz it's friday. I'm outttt!