Well I know that I have not posted in a LONG time. Things seem to be the same as usual. I have established my place at school as dumb, smart, shy, unfriendly, stuck-up, and well- all of the above. umm I still don't have many friends. I won my first tennis match a couple weeks ago but I lost the one today. I cried as soon as I got in the car. The opponents team was clapping and screaming every time I made a bad shot! I pissed me off. Where is the moment when we need it the most? You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost... Cause you had a bad day. You're taking one down. You sing a sad song just to turn it around. You say you don't know. You tell me don't lie. You work at a smile and you go for a ride. You had a bad day.The camera don't lie. You're coming back down and you really don't mind. You had a bad day. I fall to pieces every time. My life used to be a blue sky, but now it is grey.

It's official. My life sucks and I suck at life. So now what more is there? All I want is for my life to be fulfilled before I let myself go. I try hard to hide my pain. Secretly, I am in pain and no one understands. People don't have a clue that I am so depressed and emo. I admit, for the first time that I am emo. YES, I am a needy EMO kid.

Ok there is one thing that is looking positive for me right now... I leaving ODA! I am going to be attending Bradenton Prep. I hope that people like me there. It's really cool because I can get out at 12:30 and not do elective classes! IF I have a car. I know that my dad will be getting a new car and I will be driving his car or my mom's truck. I just don't know when we will be getting a new car. He wishes that he can decide what he wants before school starts. So far he has wanted a Mazda 6 and a Tahoe.

Well anyway I am really excited to go to a new school, but that does not change my misery for the next 2 months! Ok the emo Brandi is out->>